Omg, that place looks so perfect!
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posted 15 hours ago || 43,214 notes
“
But while I smile, I weep because I know
That something ends so that this can begin.
God, what a fool am I, or am I wise?
For years have I kept hidden in my heart,
The name of one who never had been more,
But whom I wrote about and set apart
From other men, though never did I tell
My feelings, nay, but used him as a muse,
An inspiration, something to adore.
But rarely did I think on what I’d lose,
If ever my affections were replaced
By someone living, breathing, warm and real.
For while I pledged my life to him in song,
The same for me I knew he did not feel.
If I could tell the truth, I’d say I planned
To go on in this fashion for all time
I didn’t care he couldn’t care for me
As long as I could own him in each rhyme
And have someone to think about each night
When torment after torment wracked my soul
To writhe in sorrow, bathe in pain’s delight
To fill my pages was my only goal
Until the day I dared to call it love
For this love was the only I had known
And somehow I could keep the rest away
For in my mind I never was alone
And being thus in love, though with a specter,
I never did expect, nor wish, nor care
To take another in that holy place
Though in my mind I knew no one was there
Yay, in my mind, but not so in my soul,
I loved, I swear I loved, else why this pain?
When of my will, I opened up the door,
And swept the space where I swore he’d remain
And something dies within me as I sweep
As something new is born in every tear.
Past years of memories I long to keep,
A future that I both long for and fear.
posted 16 hours ago || 3 notes
Listening to RainyMood (rain sounds) and “Brothers on a Hotel Bus” by Death Cab For Cutie is surprisingly comforting. I’m just gonna close my eyes, and lose myself in the noise…
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Are We The Waiting - Green Day
Forever one of my favorite songs by Green Day
Fucking hell, forgot how much I love this song and this album!
posted 17 hours ago || 8 notes
“Are we, we are, the waiting unknown?”
(Source: adoremodels, via jessicamariamanley)
posted 17 hours ago || 52,411 notes
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It stung like a violent wind, that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds. But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose, than to have never lain beside at all.
“What Sarah Said” by Death Cab For Cutie (via polyploidy)
posted 17 hours ago || 8 notes
» Sick Sad World: Tips for Coping with Depression:
Depression can often be difficult to fight as it usually drains you of your energy. And though you can’t overcome it by willpower alone, you still have some control, no matter how you feel. The suggestions below can help you with this.
1. Keep doing the activities you previously enjoyed (even if you don’t enjoy them as much when you’re depressed).
2. Try and build some exercise into your day as it releases endorphins – the body’s “feel good” hormones.
3. Know what your triggers and your risk factors are. For example, loneliness, stress, disappointment and pain are common triggers and risk factors for depression.
4. Stay in touch with your friends. Often those who are depressed start to isolate themselves – but that leads to loneliness - which makes depression worse.
5. Try and maintain some kind of routine, especially when it comes to getting up and going to bed. Taking naps in the daytime can cause insomnia and leave you feeling drained, so you have no energy.
6. Try to get a handle on how much you tend to worry. Take note of your thought patterns; don’t dwell on negatives. Instead, challenge faulty thinking so it’s much less pessimistic … and try to be thankful … and look for positives.
7. Make sure you do things that make you feel more relaxed. Often people who’re depressed feel uptight and agitated. So it’s important that you find things that help you to relax.
8. Resist the temptation to self-medicate (especially through alcohol or substance abuse.) That will lead to greater problems - and make you feel much worse.
9. Seek out support. Talk to a good friend, or someone that you trust. You’ll usually find there’s someone who genuinely cares.
10. Talk to your doctor. It may be medication is the answer for you so don’t be afraid to try and get professional help.
posted 17 hours ago || 981 notes
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No one knows my secrets, no one knows my heart; ‘cause it’s always on the run.
lyrics from “I’m A Mess” by The Rasmus.
posted 18 hours ago || 1 note
posted 18 hours ago || 1 note
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